Archive | February, 2014

Shakes and Shadows

7 Feb

I have a love-hate relationship with Wednesday nights. I love that we eat dinner really early and I know by 7:45pm the dishes, homework and showers will be done and D and I will be under the covers snuggling and reading her book. I hate the fact that we eat so early because Brandn heads to church for Worship practice and I don’t see him till the next morning.

Last Wednesday it was just us girls again I and I had a coupon for a free milk-shake from Steak-N-Shake; I got the Red Velvet. Oh…my…goodness. If you are within a 100 mile radius of a Steak-N-Shake you must try it! I borrow this quote from a sweet friend of mine “Oh my god, it will seriously change your life forever.” D got the Chocolate Covered Strawberry shake and when she tried mine she said it was better than hers, to which I replied. “I know, give it back!”

It was silent on the way home. We were too busy inhaling the awesomeness to even bother with talking. All I could think about was how ridiculously delicious this shake was and how could I get it in my belly even faster.

A song came on the radio; I couldn’t even tell you what song it was. I was in such a state of bliss that all I got were a few words: light, shadow and something about overcoming. For some reason those words popped into my head the next day after my sugar coma wore off and I got to thinking…

A shadow is an area where direct light from a light source cannot reach due to obstruction by an object. It occupies all of the space behind an opaque object with light in front of it. That sounded smart. It didn’t come from me; it came from Wikipedia.

We’ve all been in shadows before. Sometimes the object blocking the light is a direct result of a bad decision we made. Sometimes the darkness is caused by someone else’s choices. Sometimes we are walking blindly and don’t even realize we’re in the dark until we run smack dab into the object and get knocked on our butts. The good news is that there is light on the other side the bad news is there usually isn’t a happily carved tunnel through the object which allows us to safely get to the other side. We have to claw our way over or around it and I’m usually kicking and screaming the whole way.

The last 6 months have been hard for me. I lost 2 people I loved dearly, a baby still in my womb and my mother. I was in the dark; depression was blocking my light. I knew the light was there but I couldn’t see it. I was allowing events to steal my joy.

In order to have a shadow; there must be light. That’s the beauty of shadows. No matter how badly it sucks being in the shadow; light is always present and it’s always close. If you’re currently in a shadow, don’t feel bad. No matter how overwhelmed you feel, just rest in knowing that light is right in front of you.

Thanks for allowing me to share my world with you….welcome to my brain.