Archive | September, 2012

Bracelets and Bummer lambs

27 Sep

I’m a little slow.

D had a ridiculous meltdown last night.  Last night my reactions was “seriously?!?!”  This morning, the pieces came together and I was like “wow!”

Here goes…..

Last night I was in my bathroom taking off my bracelets and one broke.  I’ve had this particular one for years but didn’t start wearing it till we moved to Austin.  My whole theory on clothes has changed since moving here because my new moto is “I live in Austin, my clothes don’t have to match.”  This thinking has also spilled over to my jewelry because I wear a massive green Hello Somebody watch, an orange World Vision rubber bracelete, and a sterling silver bracelet on my left wrist and 3, well now 2, random costume jewelry braceletes and a black hair band on the right wrist every day….rabbit trail, sorry.

When my bracelet broke I must have voiced my disappointment or something because Danica came in and asked what’s wrong. I told her my bracelet broke and now I have to throw it away. I knew what she was thinking so I immediately said “it’s broken, we throw broken stuff away.” She said ok and left. She got to thinking and came back a minute later and asked what happens to the trash after the men come and take it.

Like I said, I’m slow. I SHOULD have seen where this was going but I didn’t.  I walked into this blindly.

I told her stuff goes to the dump which is a big hole in the ground. We throw trash bags into the hole and it’s nasty and smelly and disgusting there. Then when it’s gets full, we burry the trash in sand and start all over again. The stuff on the bottom is under so much pressure it breaks.

This was the WRONG THING TO SAY!!!!!!

She immediately burst into tears and for the next 10 minutes, not exaggerating, I heard “I don’t want it to break again! I love that bracelet! It’s so cute! Purple is one of my favorite colors! I didn’t even get to tell it goodbye!”  My response was “Get over it.  It’s broken.  I throw broken stuff away.”

Good thing that’s not God’s response.  We are ALL broken.  We live in a broken world; yet He doesn’t throw us away.

This past weekend I was fortunate enough to be in the same room as Sheila Walsh, again.  I…love…her.  Everything she says is brilliant and it’s said in a Scottish accent which makes it 10 times more brilliant!!

Sheila grew up in a lambing community and shared this sweet story about sheppards and lambs:

When a lamb is born, the mamma instantly decides if she is going to keep or reject it.  The rejected lambs are called “Bummer Lambs” and if not taken care of they will die.  They won’t die from starvation, but from a broken heart.  To prevent this, the sheppard takes the lamb and loves on it as well as feed it.  He literally hugs it, holds it close to his heart and talks to it.  When the bummer lamb is strong enough, it goes back to live with the other sheep.  When the sheppard is shepparding, or whatever its called, and calls out to the sheep, the bummer lambs are the first to come.


Because they know him.  They have experienced his life saving love first hand.  They know his voice and they trust him.  Their own mom rejected them but he took over.  They are alive because of him.

Jesus is called “The Good Sheppard.” He wasn’t a sheppard, he was a carpenter.  He is called “The Good Sheppard” because of His life saving love He has for us.  We are all broken and rejected yet He doesn’t throw us away.  He embraces us even more.  We are alive because of Him.

The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.  – Psalm 34:18 NIV

I pray you always remember you are loved.

Thanks for allowing me to share my world with you…welcome to my brain.


Something about music

13 Sep

But now bring me a musician.  Then it happened when the musician played, the the hand of the Lord came upon him.  –  2 Kings 3:15

To me, music represents emotions.  They can be happy emotions: Gittin’ Jiggy Wit It or Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go.  They can be heart-broken emotions: We’ve Got Tonight or Last Kiss, the Pearl Jam version of course.  They can be love emotions: Something or Fight For Your Honor.  They can also be just pure awesome: Let’s Stay Together or Groove is in the Heart.  Whatever emotion you’re feeling, it can be expressed in music.  I love music, if you can’t tell by the selection above, I love all kinds of music.

Music.  It’s honest, pure and raw.  I think that’s why God loves music too.  Music is talked about all throughout the Bible.  People worshiped and lamented to music.  Lots of church services start out with music.  It’s a time to enter into the presence of God and just worship and love on God.  I’ve cried many a times during praise and worship.  I’ve cried tears of joy because of God’ pure awesomeness and faithfulness.  I’ve cried tears of sadness and tears of repentiveness.  (I thought repentiveness was a real word but my spell checker doesn’t like it.)

Back to the verse….Then it happened when the music played, the hand of the Lord came upon him.

Remember, I said music is honest?

I’m reading this verse like this: then it happened when the musician played (got honest with God,) the hand of the Lord came upon him.

God wants us to be honest with Him.  He knows what’s in our hearts so why do we try to hide it?  I’ve had hard times in my life where I’ve been pissed at God and had some pretty strong words with Him. lol.  God gave us emotions and He wants us to use them so I thinks it’s ok to be mad at God, for a short time, but then you have to get over it and move on.

I’ve got some things going on in my life right now that are a struggle.  Things I don’t like and  I don’t understand why they’re happening and I don’t know what lesson I’m supposed to learn from them.  BUT I know I’m supposed to worship God anyway, so that’s what I do.

The day after I came across this verse, I was driving to work listening to “90s on 9” (thank you Sirius for the free promotional music.)  I was thinking about stuff and I remembered the verse.  So, as hard as it was, I turned off 90s on 9, and put in a DCB* cd instead…it was time to get honest and just love on God.

I know God is with me.  I know even though houses we put offers on keep falling through, that we won’t end up homeless.  I know even though our 12 month apartment lease ended and we are paying out the butt for monthly rent, that we won’t go broke.  I know even though D’s CHIPS might not get renewed, that she won’t be without health insurance.  I know God is with me but it’s so easy to get wrapped up in the crappy stuff that we forget the good stuff.

Whatever you’re going through, put on some music and just get real.

I woke up with this song in my head.  I think you should listen to it.

Thanks for allowing me to share my world with you…welcome to my brain.