Our laptop crashed AGAIN 2 weeks ago. The smart, tatted, pierced, techie Apple Store guy said something about our RAM card was causing the crash, (the words “RAM card” cause me to stare blankly and blink, whatever.) It wouldn’t even turn on this time so we broke down and got a new desktop computer. Laptops are convenient bc I can sit on the couch in a dark room, or a Starbucks, and blog. BUT I love that the desktop has a real mouse. Dear real mouse, how I have missed you! I didn’t even realize how much I loved you till you came back to me. I’m sorry for all the years I took you for granted and for throwing you across the room. You are constant and faithful and you fit beautifully into the curve of right my hand. You are way better than the new, sleek finger pad thingy.
That felt good to get off my chest…
Last week at church, my pastor was talking about lies. That sermon was amazing and you should listen to it as soon as you finish reading this post. Statistics show that women lie at least 3 times a day and men 6. Why is this? Why do we lie? What do we gain? Sometimes the truth is ugly, so if we alter it slightly and wrap it in a box with a pretty bow, does that make it better? No it doesn’t, but it makes us look better and I think that’s the appeal to lies.
Lets see what God has to say:
Why can’t you understand what I am saying? It’s because you can’t even hear me! For you are the children of your father the devil, and you love to do the evil things he does. He was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, it is consistent with his character; FOR HE IS A LIAR AND THE FATHER OF ALL LIES. John 8:43-44 NLT (all caps added by me.)
Lying lips are abomination to the LORD: but they that deal truly are his delight. Proverbs 12:22 (KJB)
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6 (NIV)
It’s pretty clear that: 1) lies come from the devil 2) God detests lies and 3) Jesus is truth. If I tell at least 3 lies a day, I am choosing Satan over Jesus at least 3 times a day…OUCH!!! That is disgusting!!! This is something I never thought about. Thank you pastor for making me look inward at my heart, realizing it’s not pure and gross and realizing I have a lot of serious work to do. (The “thank you” was sarcastic, I’m not really grateful at all, self examination is hard. I’d much rather pray for God to change someone else’s heart, not mine.)
A few days after this sermon was preached, Brandn asked me a question. I really wanted to lie but I had a choice to make, choose satan or Jesus. You see, we went on vacation for our anniversary and his mom and step-dad watched our girls. They logged into their Netflix account and never logged out. We don’t have Netflix for 2 reasons: 1) I’m too cheap and 2) I’m a tv junkie and if it’s in my house, I will watch it. My form of self control is to not have cable. I have wanted Netflix for a while so I can watch all the episodes of Gilmore Girls bc for some reason, when the show came out, I was stupid and never watched it. Soooo when I noticed Netflix was in my house, I immediately (it felt so natural, I didn’t even have to think twice about it) jumped right into Season 1 of GG. (If Lorelai/Luke and Sookie/Jackson don’t end up together, the writer will receive some very late hate mail from me.)
A few days later Brandn asked me what episode I was on. I froze and the internal struggle began. Do I lie and tell him episode 3 or do I tell the truth and admit that I’m a junkie and after 3 days of GG, I was already on episode 11? Dang it! Why was it so hard? Why would I even think to lie about something as stupid as this? My answer doesn’t matter; Brandn will not take the girls and leave me because I watched 10 episodes of GG in 3 days. This is no big deal so why was I considering lying?
My answer didn’t matter but my choice did. The choice of choosing Jesus over satan matters. The choice of breaking the habitual habit of lying matters. It matters to God. My heart matters to God. Your heart matters to God.
We all have a choice to make. Let me encourage you to choose God. Even though it’s not always the easy choice, it’s the right choice.
Thanks for allowing me to share my world with you…welcome to my brain.