Today I was texting my pastor (well, he’s more than a pastor, he’s my friend, mentor, husband to a dear friend, father to amazing kids, Jesus lover and world changer)…anyway…I gave him a compliment for working so hard on our church’s new website. The funny thing is, he wasn’t looking for a compliment and almost didn’t take it. Sometimes compliments catch us by surprise. Sometimes we don’t think we deserve them. Sometimes we desperately crave one but no one is there to offer one.
If you don’t know this about me, I’m a Stay Home Mom. I went into labor at work (was in denial so I drove myself to the hospital only to find out I was dilated to a 6) and never returned after my maternity leave. It wasn’t planned it just happened.
I spend my days with a 13 month old while the big one’s at school (Summer Break starts in 2 days so I’m soaking in my last 48 hours of 1 child at my heels all day long.) It only took a year, but I feel like I finally got this stay home mom thing down. The baby sleeps through the night now (angels sing hallelujah) which is a game changer and I can take on the world! I can breath again, I finally stopped be a sleep-deprived-crank-monkey and started being silly again. And now we’re gonna mess it up because we’re trying for another baby.
Today is Wednesday and Wednesday nights are hectic. I rush home after the big one gets out of dance practice and throw something on the stove for dinner, we scarf it down then my husband runs out the door for worship practice. Well, I planned ahead today. I’m making Sloppy Joes for dinner; fancy, I know. It’s 10 am I just chopped the onion, bell pepper and mushrooms because I knew I wouldn’t have time tonight. I put the container of veggies in the fridge and stood there smiling feeling pretty proud of myself…this must be what Edmund Hillary felt like after conquering Mt Everest!
I look around and no one is here to join in my celebratory dance. No one is here to say good job Katie or give me a hi-five. No one is here to see that I just saved me 15 minutes of precious time in dinner preparation. This is my company right now, and I’m not about to wake that sleeping giant:
Dear mamma out there about to pull your hair out. I know you have days where you feel unnoticed or unappreciated. I know you have days where you spend all day taking care of a young child, or maybe your day is spent taking care of an elderly parent, and you just feel unseen. I know, I have days like that too.
The truth is you are seen. You are noticed. YOU.ARE.LOVED. You are the daughter of a heavenly king and He sees everything you do. He created the awe inspiring beauty of the stars down to the subtle beauty of a daisy and He created you. He knew you from the beginning of time and has loved you ever since!